Its summer! Which means I'll be updating ^_^

well, remember that guinea pig i got for my first piggie? she was pregnant when we adopted her.

Now i have four All girls! ! Yui, Asuka, Blanket, and Billie Jean!

Yes, I'm very upset about Michael Jackson :< i didnt even know i'd be this sad...

Asuka and Blanket are going to my friend who lives nearby, and they'll be with her piggie (also a girl).

<3

GYAAA!!!

I FINALLY FOUND MY SECOND GUINEA PIG!! NOW YUI WONT BE LONELY!!!


sort of. I adopted her from a shelter in brooklyn. her cagemate had mites, so they were medicated. I have to wait for the medicine to wear off, and watch her for the next few days. If she's healthy and i dont find anyother problems during her inspections, Yui and Asuka will be free to play together. I really hope they arent the sort of pigs who fight alot at first. Piggy fights can get nasty...

But i have something to stop bleeding n stuff.

AH~ soooooooooooooooo happy!!

Happy easter to all!

in case there is anyone who watches me and enjoys the BXB stuff, but hasnt visited the club yet, your missing alot XD


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*tired, angry, desperate*

Ugh... does anyone... know where i can get a guinea pig in New York? I refuse to buy from a store. I'm pro adoption... but all my shelters dont have any T_T wahh...

I'm so desperate....

i posted this on my club account, but i'll put it here too.

I was waiting outside by McDonalds for my friends to show up. A lady stops and asks if she can ask me a question. Being polite, i said ok.

She asks me if i got most of what i wanted for xmas. i said yes.

she asked if i got the most important thing that everyone should get.

i said "if it's love, than yea."

"Well, love is important, but i mean something else"

"Is this something religious?" I ALWAYS GET TALKED TO BY BIBLE THUMPERS

"No."

then she gives me crap about accepting jesus as my savior! she says its not religious, its about opinions and veiws and saving my soul or some crap.

She she talks on and on and on, and i question her every now and then. Religious peoples' talks always have wholes and contradictions. I trold her i dont follow the bible because man has tainted it, and that i believe in Karma, and that i will not accept jesus just to rid my sins. if i sin, i'll pay for it myself.

she says i'll burn forever, that everyone will burn forever, because everyone has sinned. i asked her "If my only sin was stealing a pen, i'll burn forever?"

"Yes." she says the severity of the sin doesnt matter, its the fact that you have sinned. she said Karma doesnt exist because the Bible doesnt talk about it. also, Reincarnation is a lie to her.

BUT THIS IS WHAT PISSED ME OFF.

I asked her, with Bradley in mind, if she thinks homosexuals go to hell. i told her thats one reason i dont follow the bible and that my veiw of God is different.

The woman is a homosexual who prayed her gay away.

She said she overcame that, not because God hates gays (she says he loves them too) But that God wants her with a man.

She gave up on women to please God.

I wanted to tell her "You're probobly missing out on someone special."

I wanted to tell her everything i could. To tell her what my club stands for, what i stand for, and, to me, she was wrong.

But i didn't. It was too pitiful. I couldnt speak. I could only look at her with pity and disgust. I told her i respected her beliefs, tried to be polite, but she said "You dont respect my beliefs." why? because i dont share her beliefs.

she said my heart was hardend, that i shouldnt close God out. She said I could save myself from punishment as long as Jesus was my savior. She said i was WRONG. over and over again, my beliefs were WRONG. and she had the nerve to tell me what her FACTS are that God exists.

THERE ARE NO FACTS.

THERE IF FAITH.

THERE IS BELIEF.

AND THERE ARE WEAK PEOPLE LIKE HER WHO CONFUSE FEAR OF HELL AND DAMNATION WITH BEING TRULY RIGHTEOUS.

I dont believe a word of what she said. Do i believe in God? yes. But not her God. The version in my mind makes more sense than the mainstream Jahovah who rules through fear, and yet is "Fair".

I dont claim to understand God. I will never understand God.

Is Jesus my savior? No. Is he man-kind's savior? Perhaps. I am my savior, even if i dont like myself at times. My friends are my saviors. The members of this club, who care deeeply for equal rights and who know God is not some vengeful Homo-hater, are my saviors.

But i listened to this woman, polite and quiet, nodded and smiled. We spoke for about half an hour. I was angry, and offended at this woman, who masked her undesverved sense of superiority and accomplishment with a thin veil of smiles and false understanding.

She said if i were to take jesus as a savior now, shed pray with me, there in the street. No thanks.

And then, she gave me a pair of gloves and thanked me for listening.

I left them in a friends bag, but i will get them back, and burn them.

I will not be pittied by a woman who hides beind a book and denies any facet of her personality to please others.

I am Melanie.
I support Gay.
I choose to wath Chucky movies over "Passion of the Christ"
I follow the word of Naruto and other inspiring anime characters before Jesus.
I read Tarot Cards.
I smile upon Wiccan arts. (White magic, not black)
I dont go to church.
I believe in God. But MY God.

And My God is not a dick.

Its comfortable to believe in mainsteam God. Its easy.

But making sense of him yourself, and living for yourself, and not dedicating every moment to him, is hard. Its difficult. Its worth it.

I'd pray for her, but my God doesnt need to hear it. He knows.

There is a song that i'd like you to hear, especially for this line:

"I believe the God doesn not endorse tv evangelists."

Please listen to it when you have the time.

i dont agree 100 percent with the song either, but please, for me, listen to it.

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i love you all.

Please, dont be lead astray from who you are.